I’ve truly missed blogging, I’m looking at my old post, I see my last one was in December. I’ve had so much happen since then and want to share a few things with you.

First for starters, I would like to say, I hope everyone is being safe at this time and well.

It’s been a tough Journey for me so I’ll break things down in order.

Relationships:

In February, I officially ended my two year relationship with my boyfriend, it was tough at first but I’m slowly moving on and looking forward to new beginnings, I believe everyone teaches you a lesson, I wasn’t happy he wasn’t happy and we wanted two different things, I wish him the best but of course it’s time time to move on.

Mental Health:

My anxiety and depression had gotten so bad lately it’s been horrible I’ve had to start seeing a therapist and a psychiatrist for help. I’ve even had suicidal thoughts and had to call the national suicide hotline for help, I have my good days and bad days, I’ve cried a lot and spent most of my time isolated lately. I’m trying to get back to the old me but its hard. I’m in a lot of pain and can’t seem to figure out where this pain is coming from. I’m still in the process of healing and trying to figure it all out, it’s all a process, I’m now on new medications and waiting for it to officially get in my system. Today was a good day no worries no anything just a bunch of working from home and spending time with my daughter. I pray for better days let’s hope it comes soon.

Job:

in December, i officially got a new job working at a counseling office and it’s been amazing, I get to help others like myself with mental health. I started Off working the front desk and now I’m an intake coordinator(I assist with new patients) i love being able to help people just like myself but of course sometimes it can be hard, needless to say I was happy to be out of my last job and being able to move on to a better place has helped me a whole lot. Right now I’m working from home but can’t lie I’m missing my office a lot so I’m kinda ready to head back but of course I want to be safe before doing all that.

Diet:

I officially stopped eating pork and beef, the transition actually wasn’t hard at all I basically cook separate from my family and everyone wins the goal is to be healthier and lose some weight and so far I’ve lost 3 pounds I know not a lot but it something so I’m going to keep going. I’m looking for some new food recipes trying to figure out what to cook that sounds good and looks good of course lol I’m leaving health is wealth so take care of your bodies guys it’s tough but worth it.

Mom life:

My daughter turned 3 in March, she’s getting so big and teaching me so many new things. I love being a mom and watching her grow and learn each day it’s a beautiful fun job, filled with much joy and lost or peace. She’s so spunky and care free and it’s beautiful to watch each day. Kids make life a little more enjoyable and they also slow you down so you take time to breath and enjoy all the beautiful moments.

Final thoughts:

I wrote this draft in May of 2020, Crazy how so much has changed since then, I wanted you guys to see this and read it,I’ll be doing an update soon on everything. It’s been almost a year since, I’ve blogged and I truly missed it. I’m finally back and can’t wait to continue back blogging with you again. I also have good news I’ve started a new blog here on word press called “love talk series”. Go check out my first blog post https://www.lovetalkseries.com I’m looking forward to more post. Thanks for the support and still continuing to comment and like my post. Look out for more post coming soon.