I watched her every day, I watched her lose herself more and more, she stumbles to find the balance between reality and what isn’t real, She walks down this long road she calls life. She wants to smile but her smile has been broken down by everyday life. She longs to be loved, she longs for the boy who said he would always be there to actually show it, she screams out in anger, she’s carrying his child but does he care? No, he instead pretends her cries don’t matter and day in and day out she pretends to be happy, she pretends she’s ok and no one knows the truth behind her eyes no one sees the pain she endures.
She never asked for any of this she never asked to be a single parent. She never asked to be doing it all alone. “Do you even care” she yells out but of course she knows the answer to that already, he will never know the countless nights she sat up alone with a baby, the countless cries she had to endure. It was an embarrassment when she looked around to see all her friends happy with their relationship and to see hers crumbling. I knew he was no good for me so, why did I pick him, why did I trust him what made him so different? She was lost and he was there to pick up the pieces.
She never wanted to get hurt, she never wanted to get caught in his lies or games but it happened. She looks back every day and she smiles now because he no longer has a hold on her, he no longer can control her and he no longer can make her feel bad anymore. She stands tall with her beautiful daughter, great career and amazing people around her. It will always be ok, it will always get better, she now knows that.
For anyone out there don’t ever allow anyone to have a hold on you or take your happiness. You are beautiful and loved and life gets better. Stay positive!
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